I don't know how often I'll be using this journal, but right now, there are friends that I don't want to have know about this yet.

What can I say, it's been a bad week. Not because of things happening, cause those are just your everyday trials. No, it gets complicated. It's all in my head. See, everything happening is just minor stuff. Normally, I'd just brush it off and take it easy. But for 3 days straight, those tiny trivial things have had me in hysterical tears. Why? Not entirely sure. Could be the fact that it's the holidays. I've been trying to get in the spirit but I've been failing miserably. Of course, I don't let anyone know that I'm crying, usually. I don't need them to comfort me and end up making me feel worse....I need distractions at this point. Things that will cheer me up....My mom knows about this and has been through it herself. So tonight, she's taking me to see the doctor to get anti-depressants....23 and going on anti-depressants. What a way to end the year and what a way to spend christmas....

We'll see what the doc says tonight tho....